30/06/2006 § 9 Comments
I wanted to make sure I posted about my Birthday Day adventure seeing as though it was so rudely taken from me by the ugly computer monster! Looking back I can see how things could have just spiraled out of control and put me in a 3 day depression, but God…
All the years of yeilding and prayer and trials and failures and trying again and all the gritty stuff of walking out my faith have actually brought me to a place where I can be victorious. Even if it’s only half-way victorious, it’s still a lot more victorious than I’ve ever walked before! I am so humbled by and grateful to the Lord for His hand on and in my life over these last several years. If only you knew me then…You REALLY wouldn’t believe what you’re seeing now! I am truly a new creature, a changed vessel in the Master’s hands. And I owe it ALL to JESUS! Thank you my sweet Lord Jesus!
So on Tuesday it was my 32nd birthday.
I have to admit, I didn’t notice a difference. I still feel and look like I’m 25 or at least 27 or so. My sweet Asa came home from work and told us to get dressed–nice. (oooo goodie, goodie! I love dressing up!)
We then went to secret destination #1!
He and Lovebug brought me to the Olive Garden for dinner!
We had a wonderful meal (I had the Mediterranean Shrimp Scampi-mmmm!) and then Asa and Love both gave me a little gift bag. (yay! I love gifts!)
They bought me a new shirt and skirt! I couldn’t believe it! He got the right size and everything! The top is a pretty medium blue (I have dark blue eyes so it really brings out their color) and the skirt has 3-tone blue diagonal stripes (I have short legs so the stripes distract and confuse the viewer, making me appear taller) and is made out of linen! (I just love linen too!) Boy do my sweeties know me! (I have such an awful, old, drab and limited wardrobe. I have been trying to find nice, feminine things to beef it up with. So this gift was PERFECT!)
After we stuffed ourselves (I was sure glad I was wearing my trusty control-tops!) we then headed to secret destination #2. It turned out to be his folks house where his family and a few friends were waiting for us! He had called a few friends who live close by to come over and surprise me! What a thoughtful man! I was really having a hard time shaking off the monthly blues that day but by then, it was a lot easier to find my smile! I got a new coffee mug, a card game and CHOCOLATE! We also had an ice cream cake from DQ (tra-ditioooon! tradition!). Asa had them write Happy B-day Traci w/that gel stuff. I am sooooo loved and blessed! They prayed a blessing over me for my special day and thanked the Lord for me. They also prayed for an even better coming year. Needless to say, I needed a tissue! (actually several…OK, ok, the whole box-but no one was counting! Besides, they already know that about me. I have my own box!)
So even though we had great uncle Bob’s funeral, my aunt was rushed to the ICU for blood clotting, emphysema and a mass on her esophagus, my mother never called to wish me a Happy Birthday, I lost my great blog post and I was fighting depression, I ended up having a good day!
29/06/2006 § 10 Comments
I just had this really great post about an old time christian
radio station and hymns and music and my birthday and I
closed the wrong window and lost it ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it! I can't…uuuuuugggggghhhhhh!!!!!
I don't remember all of my thoughts….
(I'm a mother, remember?)
Oh man! I'll have to come back and figure it out later. I used up
all of my blog time for today working on this!!!!!!!!!!!
I spent 20-30 minutes on it and was DONE except the link!!!!!!!
(hanging head and slumping down in chair)
Ok. I'm ok. You just can't duplicate artistic expression like that.
I'll have to compose myself and come up with another post that's all.
It'll be ok. It'll be ok…
I hope this is sufficient for now. *sniff, sniff*
(sulking away from the big, bad computer monster…)
Just in case you're wondering, I have a drama problem. The
problem being I use it well and often! 🙂 I'm not really THAT upset.
I was bummed at first, but it was short lived. Just in case you
were concerned. I really am ok now. Really. 😉
28/06/2006 § 8 Comments
I’m just wondering if there are any other moms with just 1 child out there? And is it a girl? It’s ok if you have a boy, it’s probably just as relevent.
It’s about the whole ‘socialization’ thing. Lovebug doesn’t have a lot of girls around that are her age and it’s really hard on her to not have a friend. We attend a wonderfully fabulous church, but it has a very small older youth population. Most of the children are 10 or younger. The majority being a few months to 4 yrs old or so. Lovebug is going to be 13 and the only other kid I can think of that age is a boy. The other girls are at least 15 and up, and there are only a few of them. There is a BIG difference between going-to-be 13 and 15 or 16. They are a pretty good influence on her and she knows them enough as a positive and safe peer group, but to have friends your own age-it’s different. You know, someone to call and hang out with. Someone who likes nice things and has a good solid foundation in their faith. Someone who believes the way we do about family and faith. The girls at our church are great, and they are like that, but their friendships are already established and they are the same age. They have been haging out for a few years now while Love was still a little kid. Lovebug is a young newcomer. You can tell the difference in maturity levels and interests. It’s just not the same.
We do go on a lot of field trips so she’s ‘getting out’ and ‘socializing’, but she has no close friends. I am seriously thinking of starting my own girls group at our church (Keepers of the Faith type thing) and opening it up to other area churches so she can meet other girls. I would have the age group be from 11-14 or something like that. I don’t know. I’m just not sure what to do. There’s no way on earth I would put her back in public school! There has to be something out there. Does anyone have any ideas? I’m desperate!
27/06/2006 § 4 Comments
…kind of an odd day. This week has been really hard-and it’s only Tuesday!
Today is Asa’s great-uncle Bob’s funeral. I didn’t know Uncle Bob very well, but he is still family and I see how it’s affecting Asa’a family and it’s sad. Then, my sister called me this morning to wish me a Happy Birthday, and to also let me know…her mother-in-law is in the hospital w/pneumonia, emphazema, blood clotting and a tumor on her lung. She has always been a heavy smoker, so it’s not a shock, but it is.
Now, my sister’s mother-in-law is pretty much my aunt. I have known her and her husband and kids all of my life. Literally. She and my mom have been friends since they were like 8 years old. It wasn’t until us kids were older that we found out her kids weren’t our cousins and that we weren’t related! My sister even married her son! They’ve just always been there. That is a little harder to take. My family is emotionally unstable at times and this is really affecting them. Even though there have been rifts and chasms over the years, these last few years have kind of brought about some reconciliation and closer-ness. I hope I have the strength to be a light to them. I’m usually the first person they call when things are hard or bad. (a blessing, a curse?) I pray I have the words to say and the boldness to say them!
Anyway, I’m not sure how I’m processing this yet. I’m not depressed or anything, but I am sad. We know that uncle Bob was a believer, we will see him again in Heaven. But my aunt, I’m not so sure. I know she knows God and has been involved with the Lutheran church and believes a lot of the ‘right stuff’ but I don’t know how far that goes. To be honest, I don’t see a whole lot of good fruit coming from her life. None that would lead me to believe she was a true believer who just had some struggles but relied on God for the answers. You can know God personally and not know His power though. My great-grandmother had a personal relationship w/the Lord but never walked in complete victory. There were a lot of painful and emotional things she never gave up to the Lord and held onto, but she knew Him. She loved Him, and you could tell. For that matter there are things I still hold onto and haven’t completely submitted to the Lord, but I love Him with all of my being, and you can tell. You just can’t tell with my aunt. I just pray that if this is her time to meet the Lord, that she will truly meet Him in Heaven and not bypass Him on her way to Hell.
It’s sobering. Very sobering indeed…
I think I’ll still put up the birthday post idea I have. It might not be until tomorrow though. We’ll be busy with family. If those of you who read this could be praying for my family that would be great. Thanks.
22/06/2006 § 6 Comments
I have been soooo blessed by all of your comments and posts!
You are some of the sweetest, funny, talented, wacky, wise and zany people I know! And I love it!
I am so glad I found my ‘inner blogger’!
May the Lord bless you all abundantly above all you could ever ask, hope or think!
And I pray that I may be as much of a blessing to all of you as you are to me!
21/06/2006 § Leave a comment
1 A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
4 One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,” My heart said to You, “Your face, Lord, I will seek.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Thank you Lord Jesus, that You are now, always have been and will always be who You say You are. May I always seek Your face, be hidden in Your pavilion, sing of Your praises, taught in Your ways; never forsaken, never forgotten, never afraid, never discouraged, never alone, never overcome by my enemies and be firmly planted on the Rock of my Salvation. All the days of my life. May You, and the salvation You offer through Your Son Jesus, be the inheritence of my generation passed on to the ones to come. May I always be reminded to honor and contend for that covenant and keep it holy-set apart for Your purposes and plans. In the precious name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
20/06/2006 § 13 Comments
To give a little backround so I don’t embarrass myself terribly, my DH and I have been married for 5 months now. I was a single mother for 12 years with a mostly complete household and he was a bachelor with a lot of ‘stuff’ in his own house. So when we married and moved into his house, needless to say, it looked like Target or Wal Mart blew up in my new living room. We have had A LOT of cleaning, sorting, unpacking and throwing away/donating to do. Tim, I mean the guy that works at the Salvation Army, calls for back-up when he sees our car! I’m sure Goodwill has an APB out on us along with warnings to ‘approach vehicle with caution-watch for falling boxes’! We’ve visited a few times to each of these places because one place takes A, B and C but not D and the other place takes D, E AND F, but not E. (me thinks there’s a conspiracy afoot!)
During the day I homeschool Lovebug and he works full time. My hours switched at work so now I work every Sat-Mon. I am still fairly a newbie to homeschooling so there are still a lot of disciplines I’m learning. (like how to be disciplined) I want to make sure DD gets a good education so I have put a few things on the back burner-like unpacking the rest of our stuff and finding homes for everything and weeding through all the ‘duplicates’ of things my DH and I have. Not to mention all the gifts we got for our wedding! That, and the stuff I/he never took the time to get rid of over the years. So, things have been in kind of ‘move this pile over there so I can sort through it later mode’. This week while Lovebug was gone we did some cleaning. We had kind of been ramping up by starting with the laundry a few days before. (what that really means is that we had enough laundry to do over the course of a few days!)
Asa and I are quite different in a lot of ways. He grew up in a conservative Christian home. Modest home, 4 kids, 1 set of parents, college education…
I grew up on the other side of the tracks. I grew up in a liberal ‘God who?’ home. Decent home, 6 kids, 2 dads-1 mom, never graduated high school (I did get my GED a few years later). He was preppy, I was punk. You get the idea.
In spite of all that, we are soooooo similar. The similarity I want to divulge to you today is: unmotivated. More commonly known as procrastination, it can easily set you up for failure. When procrastination strikes, it rears its ugly head and makes you put things off when you could quite easily do them at that moment. It also affects the laundry.
Now, when I grew up it was never my chore to do the laundry. It was always one of my sisters who did it. I always got stuck with the bathroom, dishes (my first job was as a dishwasher and so were other jobs after that) and sometimes vacuuming. (Remember, family of 8-two boys and 6 girls-ONE bathroom until I was an older teen) I learned to do laundry when I was 19, out of the house and a brand new Christian and mother! I HAD to learn then.
Fast forward to today. If you were to walk into my home there are a few areas you will notice that aren’t very…tidy, shall we say? Yep, you guessed it. The bathroom, the dishes and the laundry! I need help!
Asa and I sat down this week and talked about a way to fix our dilemma. You will never guess what we came up with. We decided Love needs a few ‘official’ chores and I can oversee her accomplishing them. So, we gave her the dishes, sweeping/vacuuming and keeping her bathroom/room clean. Asa then VOLUNTEERED to take care of the bulk of the laundry and get this, he said he doesn’t mind doing it at all and actually likes it! He will also take care of the bulk of household/yard work, his bathroom, office and utility room. The garbage duties will be split w/Lovebug. Of course each one of us has to pitch in and help the others out so we are all doing our part to help out. Now, before you think I won the ‘Homemakers Dream Life’ Sweepstakes or something here’s what I’m in charge of-everything else. The cooking, shopping, overseeing, main floor bathroom, kitchen, dining room, living room, remaining 2 bedrooms(and ours), laundry room, etc…
At least we have a plan.
So, we will try this out for a while and see if it’s successful. Stay tuned…