For The Beloved
30/07/2010 § 2 Comments
Usually when that happens I turn to worship. I quiet my heart and mind and start singing to the Lord. I offer up to Him all that is going on in my life. I lay it all at His feet and ask Him to take my simple offering of myself and all I am and have and want and hope to be.
I admit, this is not as common as I’d like it to be. Distractions do come and try to pull me away and I have allowed them to steal this precious time.
Worship is a lifestyle and a dramatic departure from ‘the norm’ as far as how everyone else lives their lives-in and out of the church. It is a practiced behavior and attitude that only gets easier with, well, practice.
Then, and only then, am I able to fully embrace Jesus, all He has for me, all He is to me and all I need from Him. When my arms are full of all of that other stuff, there’s little to no room at all for the One thing, the One person who should be occupying that space.
I think that is what breaks His heart. When we have full arms and full schedules and full agendas, full heads and full bellies and there’s no more room left for a mere morsel of His love, His grace, His mercy, His sovereignty, His truth and His bread.
I want to come to a place in my life where my main goal is to make sure my Love’s heart isn’t broken because of me. You can’t truly love someone without dying to yourself and giving them all you are. Didn’t Jesus do that for us?
Before you think of me in a pious way, know that I am no where near that goal, but I at least have figured out what my goal is and I am trying to run toward it as best I can. I start out hand-in-hand with my Lord but the end of the days journey doesn’t always find my hand in His. Nevertheless, I find it, I grasp it and I try all over again. Too much is at stake if I give up. Besides, where would I go? Only He has the words of eternal life, no one else.
For we are the circumcision, which worship God in the spirit, and rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh.
Though I might also have confidence in the flesh. If any other man thinketh that he hath whereof he might trust in the flesh, I more:
Circumcised the eighth day, of the stock of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, an Hebrew of the Hebrews; as touching the law, a Pharisee; Concerning zeal, persecuting the church; touching the righteousness which is in the law, blameless.
But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ.
Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness which is of God by faith:
That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death; If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead. Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus.
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you. Nevertheless, whereto we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us mind the same thing.
Brethren, be followers together of me, and mark them which walk so as ye have us for an ensample. (For many walk, of whom I have told you often, and now tell you even weeping, that they are the enemies of the cross of Christ:
Whose end is destruction, whose God is their belly, and whose glory is in their shame, who mind earthly things.)
For our conversation is in heaven; from whence also we look for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ:
Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working whereby he is able even to subdue all things unto himself.” ~Philippians 3