12/03/2010 § 3 Comments
(For greater effect, read this with an Australian accent a la Steve Irwin, Crocodile Hunter. Trust me.)
Shhhhhh….here she is mates! Ain’t she a beaut? The elusive homemade cake in her natural environment. Check out the rounded, quasi-symmetry of the shape of her protective shell and the calmness she displays in her quiet habitat. Now, we want to have a look but we don’t want to frighten her, so we need to stay calm and pretend like we’re part of her surroundings. Having our aprons on will help us blend in and make her feel safe and at ease. You don’t want to get too close or she’ll feel threatened and not come out. So, we need to be still and calm and wait for the perfect time to grab her. There we go. That’s it. Nice and easy…and…NOW! Crikey! We got her! There she is! Isn’t she FANTASTIC?!
Ok, for serious now. I’d like to introduce you to my very first cake made entirely from scratch! (That is such an odd term…from scratch. Makes me think of chickens…) I named her Beatty. Beatty here is a double layer chocolate chocolate chip cake w/vanilla cream cheese frosting!! YUM huh? It was as a matter of fact. I was so elated. Seriously. I even took pics of the car ride to our friends house. See?
I told ya. Makes me think of that saying I just made up, “To know me, is to know I’m a nerd”. I’m totally fine with that ’cause I have the most fun in life when I’m being myself!
So why haven’t I accomplished this sooner you may ask? Confession time:
In my life I put things off because I get scared it won’t turn out right, as in PERFECT. It is a character flaw I deal with constantly and at times it can be debilitating. I have sabotaged my life many times and therefore denied myself and others of the blessing of my giftings that God picked out just for me when He formed me in my mother’s womb. He created me, each and every part and quirk. Nothing was done on accident or by mistake. I need to partner with Him to share myself with ‘the rest of the class’.
I fail. Most of the time. I try again. Some of the time. I’m working on coming to a place where that is flip flopped. I know it will take time, perseverance, deliberate choices and patience. Lord help me!
I receive encouragement and take refuge in Psalm 139:
“I will praise Thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are Thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from Thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in Thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was non of them. How precious also are Your thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake I am still with Thee.” ~Verses 14-18
So are you a procrastinator w/perfectionist tendencies too? Are you gripped by a fear that holds you back from accomplishing things in life?
Search the Word of God and you will find a treasure trove of encouragement and stories of real people who had the same problems. What did they do to make it through? Over and over God is described by the words refuge, help, faithful, rock, shield, fortress, strong tower, shelter, hiding place, deliverer. We are continually told to wait, hope, seek, obey, trust, lean, rely, take courage, believe. He is faithful and when we DO these things, He is faithful to BE these things for us.
In all honesty, I’m still trying to work this out. I take each day as it comes. I face each hurdle as I get to it and all the while I try to stay connected to my constant companion, Jesus Christ. I seek Him in His Word. I seek Him in His people. I seek Him wherever He may be found. I call upon His name, He hears my cries and He is faithful to respond.
I took a very nervous, heart-pounding-so-loud step forward and made a cake, from scratch, all by myself and I fully intend to make another one…and another one, and another one…